I don't need to tell you that the country has been reeling since Friday. We watched in horror as innocent lives, most of them children, were violently attacked and taken from their families in a manner too awful to imagine.
We have all been left with heavy hearts, unanswered questions and disquieted spirits in the aftermath. In the last few days, I have shed tears, cried out for Jesus and prayed quietly. I have felt disgusted by humanity and refreshed by it all at the same time. I have felt abandoned and yet deeply connected to God.
Our human perspective is incapable of processing such a nightmare. But our Heavenly Provider is more than capable of overcoming it
I feel as though I have so many thoughts and opinions swirling around my mind about the direction of our nation and the world at large, my view on gun laws and our society's approach to addressing mental health issues. But mostly, I feel speechless and completely at the mercy of my Savior.
And I think that is enough. He is enough. None of my words will heal these wounds, will bind them up and bring us to salvation. But peace is found in the moments when you have come to the end of yourself - your abilities, your understanding, your stength - when all that is left is Him. I hope to cling to this feeling of complete and utter dependence on His good and perfect will, on His grace, His provision, and His sovereignty - because everything else falls short.
My prayer for our country and especially the community and families of Newtown, CT is that God would flood them with His all consuming love. That they would feel His embrace and rest in it. That His word, and His word alone, would inform our decision making and our actions. And that Jesus would come. Amen.
Come, thou long expected Jesus,
born to set thy people free;
from our fears and sins release us,
let us find our rest in thee.
Israel's strength and consolation,
hope of all the earth thou art;
dear desire of every nation,
joy of every longing heart.
Born thy people to deliver,
born a child and yet a King,
born to reign in us forever,
now thy gracious kingdom bring.
By thine own eternal spirit
rule in all our hearts alone;
by thine all sufficient merit,
raise us to thy glorious throne.
